I'm in love and I can admit it now and thats such a dangerous thing... I swore I wouldn't get myself into this again any time soon. I guess I'm quick to fall... and I've always known myself to be like that... shoulda backed off before it got to this... but theres no way I could have. Theres just no way.
I guess if the situation was different I would have been more guarded but this boy broke my barriers years ago and I guess in some ways I feel like it was only a matter of time.
I've always wanted something deeper.. (omgosh I just typo'd derper...) I know he'd never let me down because he's never let me down as a friend. He's just like me in so many ways... but also so different. Probably wiser :-/ We could totally have something great if we could....
I'd love to experience something real one of these days and whatever we are is based off a very real and amazing friendship.
I want so bad to tell him I love him... in his ear... I will settle for no less. I've settled for less for too long. This time round, I want it to be close to perfect and if I didn't think it would be... I wouldn't be chasing it.
*sigh* fml... I love u foo... just be with me one day ok? :-(